Dreamweaver: 07/13/11

Wednesday, July 13, 2011

I’m Afraid

For a while, I have been feeling a strange, disconcerting fear within. I have not been able to put my finger on it, but I knew up until now, that it has to do with a sense of insecurity-about the future mainly. It’s like how you feel in the pit of your stomach when you have an exam coming up in a week and you have absolutely no idea how it’s going to turn out for you. I try to look ahead into the belly of the future and I see – darkness. Oblivion. I believe now that it has mainly to do with what I hear TODAY, in the noon of NOW.

Let me be succinct – both to myself and to you. There is no need for complex intrigue, when lucidity is a perfectly viable option. I fear for myself in the future world which seems to be hovering in some kind of bizarre, deepening hopelessness, with us cutting away at its heart and stripping it of its resources. Our ancestors have seen many wars including two on a global level. I do not worry that there will be a third. I doubt there can be another world war, when countries will be struggling to survive, thanks to the emptiness of the mother’s exhausted abundance.

I just read that a study conducted in November, 2006, came to the conclusion that we will, in all probability, be bereft of seafood by 2048. Hm. According to the average life expectancies of my generation, I should be 65 years old. Thankfully, I am a vegetarian and I do not need seafood to sustain myself. But what of the sea itself? What of the ecology of the oceans that depend on the various invertebrate and vertebrate marine species for survival. Then of course, there’s global warming and thousands of species being pushed into extinction every year. Yes, I will be 65 years old and if I live till 80, I will witness the slow murder of the planet I call home – even as I see it happening steadily today.

Yes, I am afraid and I have reason to be.

And then I wonder, what the world be like in 2100 A.D. or in 3000 A.D. Will it be as advanced as science fiction writers envision a futuristic society to be? Will mankind finally see common sense and begin to live in moderation and let the world breathe again? Will mankind finally understand the HUMONGOUS responsibility on its shoulders to protect and preserve? Will mankind finally shed the power hungry idea of a universe in which he alone resides to plunder, pillage and exploit everything else? Or will the world finally be reduced to ashes in a fiery wave - an apocalyptic climax, finally pushing man to extinction?

I don’t know. All I do know is what I see today. I’m afraid.

-----Shreyasi M

There’s Magic Everywhere

You have to look for it. You have to search really hard. But I can assure you, I’ve seen magic all around me. Now I do not find it difficult to find magic when I need it. Mostly I find it within myself. Sometimes outside. And sometimes where I least expect it. Of course one’s own definition of “magic” is vital to finding it in the first place. For me, magic is anything and everything that makes my heart skip a beat or leave me speechless with awe.

I find magic in the ocean. The gentleness of the waves masking the immense power within, the vastness of the water teeming with millions and millions of life forms and the immense tranquility I experience just by looking at the sea, seems to me the most magical thing of all. In the whishing whooshing of the waves, I hear words. When I put a conch to my ear, I don’t just hear the wind making ocean like sounds, I actually hear the ocean and the many voices speaking through it.

I lie awake at night and watch the star studded night sky. And the stars dance around joyfully as I imagine billions of worlds out there in the universe filled with stardust and moonlight, suns and planets, filled with different kinds of living creatures all struggling to establish a corner in this vast cosmic grandeur. The fact that the universe exists-is magic to me. In my dreams at night, I fly out into the night sky into the world I have created in my mind and everything is magic there.

I wake up in the morning to chirping birds and rustling leaves, a moon which disappears and a sun which rises like clockwork everyday. The baby inside a mothers womb which grows out of one single cell to a fully functional reflection of its parents, our beautiful blue planet which revolves around the sun along a set orbit, the many brilliant minds working in unison to keep earth progressive yet conserved and the mighty watchmaker who sets everything into motion along a brilliantly conceived design-MAGIC.

Constant advice from my parents to do the right thing and tread the right path-Magic. A home to go to and a dog who makes me feel like the single most special person in the world every day-Magic. The sparkle that I see in my husband’s eyes whenever he looks at me, the love he feels for me, the way he makes my toes curl every time he holds my hand-no one else can see that. Only I can and its Magic.

My own volition, my abilities, my amazing physical form which permits me to think, love and create, is magic. My Guru’s endurance of my ways and his selfless never ending love for me. Supreme magic.

I see magic in everything. In every situation. In every word spoken and in every emotion felt. In every good deed and in every heartfelt prayer. In every love filled heart and in every burning desire. In every passion and ambition, in every bit of hard work and every show of divine love.

There is magic every where. If you only care to look.

-----Magically your's Twinky.